I know anxiety is just you in the passenger seat unsure of what’s to come next. Remembering familiar emotions and reminding me that you are there and a little afraid. I want you to know that I feel you, and I am here to protect you.

The fear we share is the fuel that makes me never want to hurt you again. We’ve been through so much; I’ve put us through so much. We’ve survived so much. But listen to me, feel me, we are done surviving. You are safe in there. You don’t have to be so anxious, so cautions, so skeptical. Trust me, enjoy the rest of the ride.

We’ve learned hard lessons and lessons the hard way. I know that the constant response to environmental cues is because of history…familiarity. Anxiety is a future based response, and I promise ours is so bright, no need to be anxious. Be excited, eager, and ready to enjoy the journey.  

I know I’ve put you on the back burner, I know I went times without having your best interest at heart. From this day forward I promise to put you first. I promise to do what makes you feel good, chasing a joy that resides at your depth.

You’ve taught me so much in this life. The eternal side of me I took for granted in the trinity of mind, body, and soul. For you are the very center of my joy, the piece of the puzzle that keeps me safe. From now on I will live for my soul, allowing mind and body to follow. You are finally in the driver’s seat, so guide me. I’ve lived for the body, now it’s time to do what makes my soul feel good.

-Unapologetically Soul Searching